Rest In Peace Xusha.

by **Tom Gaskarth** Wed Sep 05, 2012 6:37 pm

On the 3rd of September 2012, our dear friend Xusha went in for a dangerous heart transplant operation to extend her life by up to 15 years.

I awoke to the news this morning that she had not survived the ordeal.

Xusha as a good friend to many of us in TR, past and present members. her art was a thing of beauty to behold and her achievements made us all proud. I personally have a small archive of her art for anyone who wishes to remember her in their own way.

So I ask you all to stop what you're doing and to think about Xusha on this day.

Rest In Peace my friend, I will miss you.

by **DigDog** Wed Sep 05, 2012 9:26 pm

Say that's just a distasteful joke.

Say it.

by **Tom Gaskarth** Wed Sep 05, 2012 10:06 pm

It's no joke.

by Katherine Wed Sep 05, 2012 11:19 pm

Dig, it's no joke. I can attest to it. No idea if you know Kom, but he will as well. Maybe you could ask Xusha's sister on it as well if you honestly do not believe it... Hell, I don't even know why I came back just to reply to this... She's soaring the stars now, maybe with Kitteh. Having little adventures with her... No longer needing to deal with that bad heart of hers nor her terrible life... We'll all see her when our time is up, y'all should know that. I know I'm still bad at stating what my mind thinks...

Be free, love. Yah deserve it. No longer shackled to the pain of this world and life. We'll all see you whenever we go as well...

by **DigDog** Wed Sep 05, 2012 11:27 pm

Oh I believe it's no joke, Tom wouldn't make jokes about things like this. It was more of a "say it ain't so" phrase.

I will miss you Xusha, I guess you're in a better place now. Thank you for the memories.

by V Thu Sep 06, 2012 12:48 am

How recent did this happen? I mean... Wow, I haven't spoken with her in so long. Was she still working for AQW? Why is there no mention there/twitter?

by **Tim Hortans** Thu Sep 06, 2012 12:51 am

On the 3rd of September 2012

I dont think she was working with AQW, i forget if she quit, was fired, or they benched her for a later project. Something happened though.

by Peregrine Thu Sep 06, 2012 12:54 am

I had no idea how hard Xusha's life was until recently, and I never realized how brave she was for it. Now that I do I wish I'd known her better, but I did know her well enough to say that she deserved better than what she had, and I hope that she finds just that. Even if you don't believe in Katherine's idea that she's soaring in the skies, she earned it, and we can at least take heart in the fact that she's freed of her mortal coil.

Thank you for everything, Xusha. I wont forget you.

by **Winnie** Thu Sep 06, 2012 1:55 am

I thought this was a sick joke, at first, but I guess it's true.

I guess I never really feel sad when people that I know die. It's like they're there, just not speaking with me... still. She's going to be very, very missed.

by **Erik** Thu Sep 06, 2012 2:20 am

I first noticed Xusha when I saw her brilliant art. Her woodcarving was inspiring, and I even talked with her about purchasing something from it. It has sparked up an interest in the subject that I never would have had if not for her.

Xusha and I often fell to talking amongst ourselves about AQW releases, TR, and current events. It was always nice to receive a link from her with some information about a nuclear weapon being moved in secret, or a funny video she enjoyed. Although I never really got into Anime and couldn't talk to her about it, I knew she was always very passionate in it.

Whether it was on our forums, or in AQW, or just on MSN, Xusha was always a kind, caring human being and I am honored to have known her.

by Snukems Thu Sep 06, 2012 3:31 am

I had just started talking to her frequently again after a few months of not talking much, seemingly....

I'll miss her.

by **Thoru** Thu Sep 06, 2012 3:38 am

I honestly can't put how I feel about this into words... There just aren't words to describe the hole that I can feel in my chest right now... She was a good friend who helped me with my art.

Xusha... Rest in Peace

by Mrsebi Thu Sep 06, 2012 3:58 am

See ya.

by **DigDog** Thu Sep 06, 2012 4:29 am

Winnie wrote:I guess I never really feel sad when people that I know die. It's like they're there, just not speaking with me... still. She's going to be very, very missed.

I know what you mean, I feel similar. It will probably take some time until I realize that she'll never log into MSN again...

:(

by Mrsebi Thu Sep 06, 2012 5:52 am

DigDog wrote:
Winnie wrote:I guess I never really feel sad when people that I know die. It's like they're there, just not speaking with me... still. She's going to be very, very missed.
I know what you mean, I feel similar. It will probably take some time until I realize that she'll never log into MSN again...

:(

Or have a discussion with about art prices on DA, or Yugioh banlists being stupid. It's weird, whenever someone dies, one of the first things we realise is that we will never be able to talk to them again, in any form. And we regret the things we neglected to do, talk to them, say something specific to them, do something with them, or just spend time with them. We regret the bad times and wish we had more good times.
Kinda selfish, when you think about it. I mean, bummed as we may be, they are DEAD, can't get much worse.
Still, it does make you think, personally, I never really had much of a reaction to death, I don't get sad or emotional, just kinda numb, and also kinda thoughtful. And I do hope that when they died... at least their last thought would have been a happy one.

by Lavitz Thu Sep 06, 2012 8:12 am

I could not stop my tears when I found out.
It's really hard to believe someone I shared so much time with has passed away.
I'm honored to have been able to forge the armor with her name in AQW.
Players shouldn't forget her, as she never forgot them.
This is a good opportunity to remember those friends you havent said hi in a while, remember to enjoy them as much as you can.
rest in peace friend,
hope you are somewhere baking muffins and photoshoping the hell out that place.

by **Aeonarial** Thu Sep 06, 2012 8:45 am

This is crushing... someone make a memorial forum sig

by KageArashi Thu Sep 06, 2012 12:37 pm

Like all things in life, things change. This is one such change, Our dear friend, Xusha, has passed away. Hopefully, where ever she is, she is at peace. But for those of us left behind in our mortal coils, we weep with heavy hearts and free-falling tears for a friend that we many not yet again see until the next great adventure. Xusha was to say the very least talented in in so many venues it was hard to keep track, and in many ways best person to aspire to. She could speak, and understand multiple languages. She had an unparalleled artistic ability. And she played a mean game of YuGiOh. But that's not what made Xusha so special, what made her special was her heart, her soul. Her heart that was filled with love and kindness, a special quality that made her likable to everyone.

She was, in a single word, EPIC. When creating a picture, whether on canvas or on a notepad, colors and words cannot describe how bright Xusha had illuminated our small world. But she was amongst the brightest stars that we all looked up to. And now, she is a star amongst that vibrant night, shining down upon us. The truly saddening part of this is the loss the world suffered, by losing this bright light.

There is this one time I will never forget, Xusha and I had a wonderful chat. It was a pretty decently long chat that went on for about an hour. It was a wonderful talk on the interpretation on a piece of artwork she designed. The greatest part in this short little tale is that the artwork she designed was a dresser. It was wonderful, it started steeped with a mysterious seriousness and ended in the tinkling wondrous sounds of pealing laughter. Every time I think of Xusha now, and the thought that she is gone forever, that story pops into my head, and suddenly this heavy weight feels a little lighter.

The tears the fell in sorrow, changed to a smile of remembrance. In my own way, I won't shed more tears of sorrow to burden her memory with grief, but shed tears of joy for all the happiness and laughter she brought, to uplift these memories of her. Though it maybe hard, these memories will be my companions to battle away these demons of grief. To honor her memory bathed in light, then to commiserate it to the darkness.

To me, Xusha was my friend. My dear friend. We might not have been the best of friends, or even the greatest friends...but we were friends...and that is enough.

To Xusha, May you forever dance upon the fields of Elysium.

Sorry if this seems, strange and disorganized...but I just needed to say these things. I mean no disrespect, the exact opposite...I have the utmost respect for her.

Guys, in honor of her. Try telling some a story of some of the greatest times you remember with her.

by Crystal Lion Thu Sep 06, 2012 2:43 pm

I... I'm sorry to hear that she's passed on. Requiescat in pace... What can I say besides what has already been said?

by Mrsebi Thu Sep 06, 2012 3:02 pm

Remember the time she drew us all as girls? (Except for Tom.)
Even Winnie though.

by Crystal Lion Thu Sep 06, 2012 3:05 pm

She genderbent some of the women too.

I still remember how we started off on a bad foot at first over AQW, but it got better.

by Katherine Thu Sep 06, 2012 3:32 pm

Tom gotten genderbent as well. You guys didn't get to see it only... I still have said picture. Tom would kill me if I showed you all it though. I might have other stuff she did for Lion and me... And a personal image she one told me to never show... I do not know if to break that promise or not. And yes, I'll be linking some songs with every post. Music helps...

by Mrsebi Thu Sep 06, 2012 4:12 pm

I think I still have the me part:
Rest In Peace Xusha. Femmes10

Rawr, am angry.

by **Tom Gaskarth** Thu Sep 06, 2012 9:17 pm

It's truly touching to see all these old names, some I never knew, come back and honour Xusha.

I know that somewhere, somehow she knows and is smiling.

by **Rage** Fri Sep 07, 2012 1:51 pm

I'm gone for 3 days and this is the news I come back to?

gently caress. I'm... I don't know what to say. I'm really gonna miss talking to her. I hope she's at peace now. This is really, really tragic.

Sorry guys, I'm not good at this sort of thing.

Edit: A long time ago, I had promised her a follow up to that mech image I sent for her birthday. It got into the lineart stage, but either I got too frustrated with myself to continue or it ended up in the 'do-later' file because of school work. Now I'm really pissed at myself that I have this sitting in my harddrive and I'll never have the opportunity to finish it for her to have.

https://i.imgur.com/AVhMI.jpg

Edit2: Looks like someone already meticulously went through her old posts and galleries and nuked her old art. That was... rather quick?

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